Snot

I finished Crazy Love tonight.  It took me longer to finish than I wanted but mainly because I took a short hiatus on reading it as the Christmas season came in full force.  After I finished I just had to sit on my couch for a bit and try and digest what I had just read.  It has now been a month since I was in attendance at NYWC and I can still honestly say that I am still trying to process all that I heard and experienced.  The only other time that this has been true in my life was my time in YWAM.  Have you ever thought about the love of God?  I mean seriously sat down and processed what it means to be loved by God.  Crazy Love is exactly what it is.  Not only that but if we were to be honest with ourselves we would have to admit that God wants nothing but Crazy Love in return from us and He truly deserves it.  The problem with this though is that it will make us extremely uncomfortable because there is no way to love God as fully and passionately as He requires and still remain in our comfortable position.

I experienced this first hand the other day and God REALLY slapped me upside the head.  Ally has been really congested recently and has had a lot of snot in her nose and it's difficult for her to breath with it so full.  So we have this contraption that sucks out the boogers so that she can breath.  Here is where the problem lies.  She hates it.  She fights and pushes away and cries and resists and makes it at times nearly impossible to put the thing in her nose.  All I want to do is remove the obstacle in her life that is making her even more uncomfortable but because it is a little uncomfortable she would rather continue struggling to breath.  Last Wednesday was probably the worst that I had ever experienced and I got so frustrated with her.  She fought so much that I finally gave up and let her continue on not breathing as well as she could, because I didn't want to hurt her.  It wasn't until later that day that I saw what God wanted me to see.  He does the exact same thing for us in our lives.  He so badly wants to remove the obstacles that are keeping us from experiencing His fullness in our lives but because we have become so comfortable with the "boogers" in our lives we don't want to go through what it will take to remove them.

As I sat there and thought through the areas in my life where I have junk that I have been carrying even though I don't have to I began to understand more fully what God wants to do in my life.  It was as if He was saying, "Robb, let me get this crap out of your life.  If I do you will experience a fullness of life that you haven't ever tasted before.  It's going to be uncomfortable for a bit but it's necessary if you want to get what I have for you."  Just as much as I wanted to ease Ally's breathing, God wants to ease my burden.  God wants to help me experience life to the fullest here so that life there will be even sweeter.  Why am I so stubborn?

I want to just say a simple thank you to Mr. Francis Chan for being God's instrument in writing this book.  I have read many books about my walk and my life in Christ but none have ever impacted me the way that this one has.  This one will go on my desk as one of those books that constantly reminds me of God's Crazy Love for me and that my only appropriate response is giving God my Crazy Love in return, no matter what it costs me.

I am outie 5000,

Robb